It's now over 14 months since David's death.
Things are ok. I mean, today has been rough. I don't know why I am so anxious to love again, to be loved again. I know that things will happen in time.
So, I'm having a bad day. Like a really bad day. Not so bad that I'm worried about myself but bad enough. And there is no away to run to... David was my away. He left me with a great life, and no one with whom to share it. I know this feeling is temporary. I know it gets better.... but it is not better today.
I feel like I am wrong somehow. I feel like I am broken or messed up and while I am told that this is not really the case, that my life was broken FOR me, it's still broken.
I don't have anything hopeful to say today. This feels bad, and I don't like it.
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